My hubby Ryan is in the military. He has been in since he graduated from highschool back in 2001. Luckily in December he will be officially out of the military. I will be able to give a sigh of relief when December rolls around. Until then...i must hold in my breath.
The past three weeks, he was away with the military for some training. He had to do this last year too, only it was for 2 weeks. But this time, families were not welcome to visit. I just had to see my husband and i wanted James to see his daddy too. After me and james took an 8 hour road trip to NC to visit family, we headed back toward KY. Ryan was transporting people back and forth from the base in Independence, KY that same day. We actually worked it out to meet each other at some random McDonalds in Dry Ridge for about 10 minutes. It was such a God thing. It was so good seeing him about 1 1/2 weeks into the 3. But it was almost like a tease, too. haha.
Everyday at home i tried to have my days planned out....literally. I had a list of things to do everyday. Yardwork, clean, finish laundry, take bathroom wallpaper down, visit family, etc. No matter how busy i was i would still think of Ryan. The nights were the worst. After having James tucked into his crib, i could finally collapse on the couch for a bit for some relaxation. I was almost hesitant to go to our bed, because i knew that he would not be there.
I realized how much i took my husband for granted while he was gone. For some reason, it never failed that some kind of appliance or electrical thing would stop working while he was gone. Our garbage disposal and dishwasher wouldn't work. Anyways...i missed how i could turn in the middle of the night and feel him next to me, i missed seeing james laugh and wrestle with his daddy. Mostly i missed feeling like our home and family were complete.
It was a very long yet busy 3 weeks. The best part about being away from your loved one for so long is that you spend so much more extra time making up for lost time. :)
I am blessed that Ryan is not overseas or being deployed like so many other military men out there. And that he was only gone for 3 weeks. I really admire the women and families that go 3 months to year without their loved ones. I tip my hat off to ya'll. So if you have a spouse who is in the military or even just a spouse in general, be sure to hold them a little tighter tonight!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
In my past blogs i have shared many happy stories and pictures. I really want to share with ya'll something that really hits my heart hard. This is only my opinion, but i will state some facts. You can take it however you want, but i feel like i need to vent on this subject.
I took James for his 9 month check up about a week ago. Luckily, this time he did not have to have any shots, but they had to prick his heal with a needle to get some routine blood work done. He handled it very well, just like a brave boy. He did not know what was happening. All he knew was that he was laying on a doctor's table being held down by an unknown nurse. He looked up at me with those beautiful blue eyes and smiled. Then the nurse pricked his heal. His little eyes began to fill with tears. I wanted to knock that nurse down and hold my baby boy. It killed me to see him in pain.
This made me think of abortion. The word even brings shivers to my spine, anger through my blood, and sadness in my heart. How can anyone do that to a child? They are not a fetus, they are a child...a human being.
-thousands of children have been killed in car accidents
-100s of thousands have been killed from diseases
-over a million have been killed by abortion
The choice to kill an innocent child...there should be no choice. There is hardly any excuse anymore to get pregnant. people are practically handing out condoms to kids these days. Does it not register??
So many women are not blessed with a fruitful womb. I do have a baby boy, i am blessed, but i found out that i have endometriosis. Endometriosis usually does not allow you to bear children. I am worried that i will not be able to have more kids to add to our little family in the future. To be designed to bare children and just kill them inspite...is a slap in the face to women, don't you think? Women were made to have children. TO mother them...instead of aborting, give the child to someone who isn't able to have kids of their own.
Being pregnant, having James, and mothering James has been the most rewarding thing i have ever done. To help bring life into the world. To give someone love.
Yes, i know there are situations such as rape, but there are as many options to bring a baby into the world as there are options to birth control.
Birth control is different from abortion. Birth Control is preventing life. Abortion is killing life. Before conception=Birth Control. After conception = Abortion.
I believe that everyone needs to see and hear step by detailed step about what abortion is. And every woman should be made to have an ultrasound as well. From hearing the first heart beat, to seeing him/her wiggle on the ultrasound screen, to feeling that first kick in your belly, and to holding life...
Life starts at conception. Did you know that the when you have sex, the chromosomes in the male's sperm already hold what the sex of the baby will be?
It killed me to have James' heel pricked, but it was for his own good. To think that children are not here, because the parents thought it was for "their" own good.
Just because they have not taken there first breath outside of the womb does not mean that they are not alive.
I encourage you, though it will be very graphic, to go to Prolife.com. They have videos and pictures of what abortion does. You can even go on Youtube and find prolife videos about the baby's growth in the womb - that is awesome!
They have a voice as well...Will you choose to listen.